<TITLE>05. Par 15-18</TITLE>L-15 And so they... I looked around and I seen all that, and I thought, "And my little Sarah and Rebekah is going to have to come up under such? God, look like if You're holy and how great You are, look like You'd just blow the thing off the map like that. How could You stand it?" I thought "Oh, my."
And I felt something going, "Whew, whew, whew," like a whipping. That's the way that light when it comes up, it's whipping like a fire. And I noticed it was standing close to me. I stepped back behind the door. I put my head against the wall, and I said, "Heavenly Father, what..." I thought... Now, here's what I was thinking. "Do You want me to call down judgment?" Now, that just shows how a human being can get so far away.

L-16 I stepped back. I thought He was going to ask me just to go out there and say, "All of you, I rebuke you everyone, you sinners. Repent or die." See? And I thought that's what He'd tell me do. I wouldn't do it unless He told me. So I--I went out--went back there, and I thought He was going to show me.
When I did, I seen, looked like--when I opened my eyes after I knowed He was behind the door there with me--and looked like something turning. I begin to look, and it was a world, this earth, and all around it was a mist, like a red mist a-blowing all around it. I looked far up above there and I seen Him.

L-17 Then I looked down and I saw myself. Looked like I come right onto the earth. And everything that I would do was mean, my sin would start up to meet God. And before it could get to Him, Jesus act like a bumper on a car between me and God. See? It hit Him, and He'd hold His side, the tears would run out of His eyes, and I'd hear Him say, "Father, forgive him; he doesn't know what he's doing."
I watched myself as a little boy, the things that I done. And I'd see every time I'd do something evil, why, it looked like it would start up. And God would've killed me for it (See?), and I--'cause He's holy. Sin cannot stand in His Presence. but I seen that mist a-blowing around, and that blood of Jesus act like a bumper between me and being slain by God. Well, I looked, got up close to where He was at, and I looked, and there laid my book laying out before Him, and on there was my name, and every bad thing that I'd ever done was wrote right on it. And I noticed every time that I'd do something wrong, be--I'd done it, He'd--He'd catch it. And it--it hurt Him, and He'd catch His breath like, and tears would run down His cheeks; He'd say, "Forgive him, he doesn't know what he's doing."
I thought, "Lord, did I make You suffer like that?" I thought, "I love You. Would I make You suffer like that? You mean my sins did that?"

L-18 He nodded His head to me, and I could see that--looked like you see Him in the picture, with that crown on Him, like that, blood in His eyes and face. And He looked at me, and looked like tears all matted His beard together, blood stains all over His face. I said, "Did my sins do that to You?" He nodded His head to me. I said, "God, forgive me. I--I wouldn't--I wouldn't to want to hurt You like that, Lord. I love You with all my heart." He took His side, patted it with His hand, took His finger like this and wrote on my old dirty book, "Pardoned," took it and throwed it over behind Him, like this, into the sea of forgetfulness, laid out a new book. I said, "Lord, I thank You. I'll--I'll never try to do anything wrong. You..."
He said, "Now, I freely forgave you. I freely forgave you, and then you want to destroy her."
And by that time the door had come back, and I was looking right at the woman setting there. I wanted to destroy her, after I was freely forgiven. I just pulled the door back together where I'd been moving my arms while the vision was on. I pulled the door back, and I said, "Father, forgive me. I'll--I'll go right to her and I'll apologize."


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